I love that Adrian finds a toy in ANYTHING. We had fun building outside. I love (most of the time) that he is such a lively and active little boy. We always have something to do, and it's great that we get some variety in there. Some days I can't wait until he's a little older and can participate in activities I know he will love, but just isn't quite old enough to do, then I have to remind myself that that time will come soon enough and I need to enjoy Adrian as he is now. Today.
I have a unique perspective on enjoying my little boy now. When he has visitation with his daddy, I miss him terribly! I have to keep myself busy to avoid slipping into a mini depression. It is hard to be a mom and not know or experience everything my three year old does. It is hard to let go every time he goes with his dad, not because I think his dad won't take care of him, I know he does his best, but because I don't get to have him in my life.
I also have a fear that if I ever do remarry and have more children, I will not be a patient mom, and have a hard time adjusting to having my children around all the time. Will I be patient enough? But no reason to stress about something that has not happened yet. Something that's not even close to happening. So many of my friends are going or have gone through divorce has well. And they all happen to be single mothers now because of it. It is so sad to me that such a thing is so prevalent today. It is never anything something any of us saw or wanted in our futures.
Yet we go on. We have no choice. We all want and need to make the best of our situation. I am so grateful that even if I never remarry or have any more children that I will always have Adrian he is such a joy and guiding light in my life. I feel immensely blessed to have him in my life.
Here are the cute pics of us building together:
Our new tradition is to go across the street to Cochrans Produce for our pumpkins. Good price and close by, and Adrian has fun. They also have some of the cutest home decor for sale inside!
This picture does not do justice to the size of these wagons, they are HUGE. I thought Adrian would have fun riding in it with me lugging him around. Oh no, he's a BIG boy! I'm half suprised he didn't ask me to hop in so HE could pull ME.
Autumn is my fav time of year, these pumpkins just look so festive.
He needed help around the corners on the trip back, but was just as happy to pull the wagon out as he was pulling it in.
The final product! Well until we carve them that is.
